Lies- M vs F

Sorry to be slightly bias as I will tend to speak from a female's perspective

"I love her, thus I dont want to hurt her" 

is always the reason to lie. 

Doesn't this hurt her deeper when she finds out the lies? Well, unless you plan to break up with her with a beautiful ending, or else please be honest to her. Man knows the consequences of lying to woman; he knows he gotta pissed her off, but due to he manage to resound her with laughter, she will forgive the matter temporarily. Lies are like bombs in a romantic relationship, because the next time the couple has argument, there is a high chance that the woman will bring up the previous "lie" matter which totally annoys the man. 

Man's mind : Over means past, why she wants to mention about that? Too free is it?

Woman's mind : He had lied to me once, there are chances that he will lie to me again. 

Speaking from a woman's stand, 

Lie creates uncertainty to a woman. The key point is she does not have the courage to trust the man anymore. The more he lies, the lesser she trusts him; even though she doesn't show it externally (which the man thinks he has got over it). If you choose to lie, you are choosing to break her trust towards you; thus, do not blame why she questions you again. Well, the man may later realised it was his fault and he wants to turn over a new leave, yet his woman still questioning him- man gets SUPER frustrated. Remember, you choose to break the trust, you need to pay much more hard work to rebuild the trust; unless you do not want her, that's a different story. If you love her why do you want to lie to her at the first place? Man always think that woman wants the best answer; in fact a real woman, who truly loves her man, wants the truth- she wishes to understand, to assist, and to be with him always. 

Life IS Fragile

Life is so fragile, life is so cruel.My deepest condolences and prayers go out to her family and loved ones. You will always be in our hearts, Shu Ern. May you rest in peace.

I still remember one of my friends passed away because of heart attack when we were form 4, and now another friend (Shu Ern) drown in Tioman. It was supposed to be a wonderful and happy trip but ..... I suddenly feel that no matter who you are despite of gender, height, weight, capabilities, and etc, your life will just ended in a second- and that's the end. How can life be so fragile? You just can't do anything but leaving your soul from your body. We always have the mindset that only old people will pass away; in these cases, my friends who were so energetic and enthusiastic about their lives, ended their lives at the climax of their lives.

I talked to my little friend, he said "That's why must appreciate the moment with your loved one". Then, I feel bit worried because I am going to Pulau Redang next week, will this happen to me? *touchwood* Seriously, if this happens to me, I think I cannot let go as I have so many things haven't done in my life; like I haven't graduate, I haven't step into the real world, I haven't find my Mr Right, I haven't marry, I haven't give allowances to my parents, I haven't go so many places around the world. There are too many things that I haven't do or accomplish.

Well, Life IS fragile, enjoy and appreciate every second that you have passed, don't take it for granted. Life does not take two. 

Updates

WORKLOAD

I am currently.....

1. Full time study degree student- psychology
2. AW in 2nd KL GB
3. Vice President of HELP Psychology Department Student Council
4. Vice President of Rescue Club
5. Publicity of Circle K

*look at the workload that I have to face in coming years @@  No time to couple already T.T

SEMESTER BREAK

Finally, the short semester has ended. It's summer timeee!!! Well, I have many plans for semester breaks as usual HAHA, but I wish to find part-time job as well (to gain experience). Hmmm, what to do leh? 

Please introduce me if you have any nice jobs :) 

RELATIONSHIP

Well, I am currently single and you may wonder why I will take about relationship here. Hmm, recently there is a guy who treated me seriously nice (I din misund), but I have no feelings at all; reason, he has a girlfriend. I wonder why guys who have girlfriend still wanna flirt so much with the girls out there? Well, they can treat girls nicely but not over like randomly stood behind me and massaged for me when I were tired (ps : I am not close with him). If we were close, I can understand la. 

My point is guy who has girlfriend can be friend and close with other girls' friends but  not too over until those actions can lead to misunderstanding or what. 

Commitment

Finally, I "feel" what is commitment about.

You may be curious and ask "Really? You were so active in high school- sports, uniform bodies, GB- and you can manage your studies well also? I think you are quite good at managing your commitments la~~ "

I gotta say that:

Previously, in high school, the time is fixed (i.e. time to go school, time to join koko, time to go GB). I just need to go according to the routine. Well, maybe there are some events, but compare to university, that was like kacang seriously. University got so many events that I need to commit a lot with my team, especially in student councils- because we are there to serve students' needs.

As for now, 

The main responsibility of mine is to study. University level is sooooooo @@, I've tried very hard in doing my assignments and stuffs but I still can't get an A (i.e. 90 and above); how can I get my First Class Honour then? :(((( Next, I am currently the vice president of HELP University's Psychology Department. Honesty speaking, I can feel the level of commitment that I need to put in, it is much more than GB. In GB, there are still other officers, BB, or church members to work things out. In student council, it is either we do the job or no one else will do. Sooooo, my commitment in GB will be lessen for the coming months. However, I know I will learn a lot in student council even though it is stressful and etc. 

Speaking about commitment, it reminds me of Boey who spoke about commitment of love to me. He told me what he broke up with her ex-girlfriend because of the different level of commitment. At that particular moment, I only "understood" the definition of commitment but I did not "understand" the deeper meaning of it; now, I do. Then, I wonder did I commit enough in my previous relationship? Ermmmmmmm, I think I did. Well, one of the reasons that I am not ready to involve in relationship now is because at this period I know I am unable to commit in relationship  due to the workloads I have in hands. However, if the right man is willing to wait until I am done with all these- studies and councils, I will then show my commitment to him. 

:)

Student Council

I feel glad when I know I get presidency with Ross :) Well, there might be some people who dislike this result, people who think I am running because of the post, or even question my capability of work. That's alright for me, but I feel bad when friends who are always close to me, judge me a lot. Hm, they even comment about it too. 

Vivian Tang said: 

Friends not always supportive for us and this thing actually shouldn't let urself worries because it is not worth it..

Be the way you like to participate for the council. 

Bei said:

You just have to stay yourself doing your way. 

Then I speak to myself, 

You (I) know that it is impossible to get everyone agrees with your ideas and your ways of working based on the leadership experiences you had throughout the years, then why are you afraid or stress of? You may not be the famous in the department; all you need to do is be yourself and show them who you are. Always remember the aim of you running this post- SERVING and LINKING. People may question about your abilities and purposes of running this post; well, you need to not to explain to others but yourself and God. You just can't peace everyone but majority, and as long as you have done your best, God will do the rest.

Amen.

So Blessed- Love Life

It has been a long time since my last post in this blog. I used to be VERY ACTIVE in blogging, but due to this semester is a short semester (super stress) and currently I am quite active in twitter, I have neglected my blog. SORRY BLOGGIE. Well, before I wanted to update my blog, I wished to share about how busy my short semester was, how stress was I, how grateful it was when God answered my prayer, etc stuff. But I found something that really touch my heart, "Love Life" which conducted by Hei Ren and Fan Fan, and I wish to share it to my friends.

At first, when I first looked at the name of the album, I thought it is an album regarding the love life between this couple; thus, I just ignored it. Later, I realised my thought was totally wrong. This album speaks about people with bone cancer are willing to fight till the last second of their life, they really want to stay alive; they wish to exchange lives with those who just commit suicide whenever they face problems. Then, my mind told me "aiya, these people never experience how lives are, and of course they want to exchange lives with others"- because  my perspective is they had bone cancer when they were very young, and they never knew how lives were. In fact, I am wrong again! These people were once the champion in their specialities, and they experienced the climax point of their lives. However, their lives changed when they found out that they have bone cancer. They are unable to achieve their dreams even though they are really passionate. They want but they can't. 

Besides that, I also found out a little girl, who only has one arm, participated in Triathlon. She did not win the competition but I am really touched by her spirit, enthusiastic, as well as the hard work she paid to achieve her dreams. Although she has only one arm, she can play piano and guitar; the society will question how can she made it? Well, I question about that too as I have both hands yet pressing those chords (guitar) with my fingers is really hard for me and I complaint that my fingers are not long enough, my tips of fingers are pain, and etc. After I watched her video, I realised I totally have no reasons to complaint any single thing; in other words, I am not the qualified person to complaint at all. 

Who am I (are we) to complaint that learning musical instrument is hard?

Who am I (are we) to complaint that assignments stress is too much?

Who am I (are we) to complaint life sucks?

Who am I (are we) to complaint about things when I am (we are) born healthily with perfect organs and body structures? 

LEARN FROM THEIR SPIRITS and stop complaining :) 

Life will be so much better. 

And I want to thanks William Tang, who approached to me regarding the project of sponsoring a child by BB, for giving me a chance to help them. The satisfaction gained is more than anything else, and this intrinsic motivation is the power that drives me to study psychology as well.