It is hard during this period, really hard. It makes me understand why psychologists and their theories strongly emphasize that family is fundamental for a human development. But what can I do when I keep receiving the response of indifference and the signs of not accepting me as part of family, even after I have apologized to her. If there is such unwelcome, then what's the point of staying? While for the moment, I will just keep praying and pray that I will have personal time with God when I am US.
I will be leaving to US in the early of May, that's too fast for me! So many things unsettled here. Or it is just I am too heavy to leave this county for so many months. Or because I lost my strong foundation and hence it stops me from moving further.
Alright, talk about something bright. I just bought a Bible and it has a pink cover :) Finally I got to have a personal bible. Maybe I can spend time with God when I am on the plane (where I am closer to God HAHA) and US. Well, the challenge comes with having a long-distance relationship for 5 months. Initially I thought I was okay, but now I seem to be insecure and worry about it. Just keep praying and praying :) Relationship has to go through certain challenges in order for the couples to grow in it.
Lastly, I can foresee I will have homesickness and pray that I will be okay. *wipe tears*
- Thank you for reading this weird post-
