His Plan

God is really amazing. He not only shows me His presence, but also shows me how He answers one's prayer and how He makes things work. I thought I will never meet a guy who understand me as much as my ex did. In fact, I found a real man who not only understands me so deeply, loves me as who I am, waits me until I get ready, grows me to become a better person, pampers me more than my dad does, and honors me as female (despite spiritual or physical). I am soooooo lucky and blessed. REALLY! People always think that we are couple, but we are not (yet) as I am not ready for a relationship. So now, he is currently my best friend or slightly more than best friend?? Haha. I thank God for showing His love to us and wanting the best in us- to have a good start and end it well. Through him, I understand Him more and better. Well, it takes time but I am glad that I meet a man who is willing to wait for me to get ready before I give any promises. May God continue be our guide in this relationship and pray that it goes well no matter how hard the situation is. Amen.

On the other hand, I always pray for my little friend who is seeking for her love but she has been hurt quite some times and now she becomes slight flirty than she used to be last time. To me, I really wish her to realise that that's not the way to get into a relationship. Even though you flirt with the man, there is high chance that the man is not a good/ real man because good real man does not like flirty woman neither. In another words, there is a high chance that the man you attract is a jerk which may lead you to the bad cycle again (cheat on you, break your heart, and break up with you). I REALLY DO NOT WISH THAT HAPPEN ON YOU ANYMORE. I am praying each day that you will find a man who understand your pain and hurt behinds your flirting action, help to heal your wound, and love you as much as he could. I really pray for that, I cannot bear seeing you hurting anymore and stuck in the same cycle again; I pray to BREAK the bad cycle happening on you. But before that, you should change yourself to notice that you are a worthy girl :) Don't devalue yourself just because you think that there is no guy out there reaching for you. Remember, good things (man) worth waiting. God has the best plan for you, and all you need to do is to put your FULL trust on Him. I say this because I experience it. God loves me and God loves you as well. :)

Again, I shall say, good things (man/woman) are worth waiting for.

Achievements vs Values

Throughout my life in tertiary education, there is always this question that surrounds and confuses me.

"Achievements or Values are more important?"

People who commit themselves into tertiary studies because they want a diploma/ degree certification at least, so that they can compete with the fresh graduates outside for a job in future. How many undergraduates actually think of "I study in university because I want to learn the skills that will benefit me in future"? I wonder~ seriously. As I have seen my friends choose electives based on the subjects' course outlines (assignments can be done easily); they don't really judge based on what they want to learn from those subjects. Perhaps this happen more frequent in private universities as students are paying around RM2k for one subject. Hence, grades play crucial roles in this case as students need to repay RM2k over if they fail the subject, and if you score badly- that's it. What I want to say is, most people study for grades, not that they want to learn things from it.

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Ms Listen case makes me think of this question even deeper especially when she says "The difference between you and me is I am a degree holder and you are only O level."

1. You are a degree holder because you are born earlier than us.
2. The whole street is bombarded by degree holders. Degree certification isn't something great nowadays.
3. Even our lecturers (Master/ PhD) want us to voice out our opinions but a degree holder shut us up.
4. People gain respect, they don't ask for it.
5. Ms Listen even shouted at her colleague who is same age as her. You can say you don't need to respect the youngsters but he is elder than you, woman.

Colleague : Can I speak something? (very politely)

Ms Listen : NO! I haven't finish yet! *then continue talking*

 

People are angry not because the animals facts that you have raised, but your attitude. Despite the facts that you cutting off Ms Bawani's word with your 11 times of "Listen!", grabbing the microphone over to stop her speech, shooting her in front of the public, and not answering any of her questions seriously. You can shoot her but please give some rational reasons. Yes, everyone has problems even animals also have problem; does it mean that we need no to solve these problems coz it will always be there? And bear in mind, those animal problems that you have raised are inherited issues- only God knows the solutions; problems that raised by Ms Bawani are men-related problem- where it was created by men and hence it should be solved by humans as well.

As a degree holder, you failed to answer questions raised by O-level student.  

As a degree holder, you failed to gain respect from people.

As a degree holder, you failed to practice the moral values.

As a degree holder, you failed to understand the meaning of "apologize".

As a degree holder, you failed to meet the basic human values - respect.

GOSH ! I ended up this post by criticizing the other @@ which I shouldn't really be doing this! But something that I have to say, Malaysia will become worse if the politics keep suppressing us from voice out our opinions and force us to follow those laws blindly. Everybody says CHANGE! But one will never change if he or she doesn't want to get out from the comfort zone. ;)



Start of something new

WOW Sudah 2013 weyyyyyyy, I still can't accept myself turning to 20 this year. It sounds like I am no longer a teenager, it's time to grow up. :'(

Anyways, 2012 was a great and challenging year. I've travelled to few places that I never been and experienced many things that I never try before. (the main ones)

1. Officially a degree student.
2. Tones of assignments and researches.
3. Officially a Gb officer, thou it's just AW.
4. Holiday in Pulau Perhentian.
5. Submitting 5 assignments in a week.
6. Becoming the VP of psych student council.
7. Becoming the VP of rescue team.
8. Becoming the publicity of circle K club.
9. Becoming the Psych rep in Student Representative Council.
10. Marathons (Half Mara, Nike, Kidney Run, 12 hour walk, etc...)
11. Holiday in Genting with friends only.
12. Holiday in Pulau Redang.
13. Organizing so many eventssssss.
14. Speaking up in front of all the Psych freshmen.
15. Conducting research (interviews and questionnaires)
16. Teaching first aid in school.
17. Teaching drill in one week and rush for competition.
18. Becoming head of sponsorship team in Psych Annual Ball.
19. Christmas in Singapore.
20. Countdown in Genting.

2013 is my year 2 degree ad. Cannot play as much as I did before because CGPA and honours are counted. Well, I still need to balance myself well between academics, co-curriculum, and GB. My 2013 calendar was full during the Nov of 2012. So, I can foresee it will be a TOUGH year. Gotta prepare myself well enough to go through all these.

Well, something that I will still remain are the marathons and holidays. I am now planning where to go for my April sem break HAHA XD That's the best reward for me after a tiring semester. : D