A New Journey

God has a plan for everyone, for real. Before He gives you the best, He will put you in situation where you might need to go through pains and suffers so that you will truly appreciate your greatest gift from Him. Last year, God allowed me to meet a man, Victor and He put us into lots challenges before we coupled as He wanted us to truly know what we want and what is love. Because of all these ups and downs, it brought us together and he showed me what LOVE is. Even though I had been in relationship before, my understanding towards love wasn't enough. Victor really set me the example and standard of what it means by love because God loves him. I gotta thank God for answering my prayer. He not only answered my prayer, but also gave me more and better that what I prayed for. 

My prayer was:
1. Lord, I want to be close to you but I don't know how. Please guide me.

2. Lord, I pray to get a man who truly loves me and will not abandon me no matter what.

3. Lord, I pray that my future man's first kiss is still with him. (because I find it very disgusting if he kisses someone else before, and I still have my first kiss)

God not only gave me what I prayed for, He combined all my prayer in one. He also gave me more- I am Victor's first girlfriend. Of course, we are praying we are each other's last partner and we will work towards it. His family is a very fun family and all of them welcome me a lot. Even we just coupled half a year now, they already treat me like their family member (daughter-in-law). His grandmas will complaint about each other in front of me, where I need to be the middle person. His mom will scold him through me and a lot of things. His dad knows I love to run and he bought me a pair of Adidas running shoes. God is really good to me. Really good! 

Stepping into relationship is always a serious matter for me, especially at this age. I want to seek for a life partner rather than a partner so. People say relationship is not a matter between two people but two families. I thank God for this family and I also try to be close with them as well. At the same time, he also put effort in getting closer to my family. As this is new to us, we are facing the problem of time where we need to split the time among my family, his family, us, studies/work, and personal time. We had bit hard time fixing about this because he is the only son and I am the only daughter. Although it is slightly hard, it is getting better in this semester just the fact that he is working time so we need to reschedule everything. We pray for God for His guidance in guiding us into solving this problem. 

A lot of people might think that why do you guys need to do so much? just couple only what, why need to go each other house every week as if you guys are married? Well, we realised that problems that we met before and now, are problems that lots couples are facing when they are in their third year or more. Whereas this issue of time managing between families is usually problem that couples face after they get married. Hence, we take this as a training before we step into a different stage of life. Thank God for bringing Victor Goh into my life, may You always be our guide throughout our relationship.

Hereby, I attach the song "Marriage Prayer". This song really touches my heart, tears drop every time I hear it.

His Plan

God is really amazing. He not only shows me His presence, but also shows me how He answers one's prayer and how He makes things work. I thought I will never meet a guy who understand me as much as my ex did. In fact, I found a real man who not only understands me so deeply, loves me as who I am, waits me until I get ready, grows me to become a better person, pampers me more than my dad does, and honors me as female (despite spiritual or physical). I am soooooo lucky and blessed. REALLY! People always think that we are couple, but we are not (yet) as I am not ready for a relationship. So now, he is currently my best friend or slightly more than best friend?? Haha. I thank God for showing His love to us and wanting the best in us- to have a good start and end it well. Through him, I understand Him more and better. Well, it takes time but I am glad that I meet a man who is willing to wait for me to get ready before I give any promises. May God continue be our guide in this relationship and pray that it goes well no matter how hard the situation is. Amen.

On the other hand, I always pray for my little friend who is seeking for her love but she has been hurt quite some times and now she becomes slight flirty than she used to be last time. To me, I really wish her to realise that that's not the way to get into a relationship. Even though you flirt with the man, there is high chance that the man is not a good/ real man because good real man does not like flirty woman neither. In another words, there is a high chance that the man you attract is a jerk which may lead you to the bad cycle again (cheat on you, break your heart, and break up with you). I REALLY DO NOT WISH THAT HAPPEN ON YOU ANYMORE. I am praying each day that you will find a man who understand your pain and hurt behinds your flirting action, help to heal your wound, and love you as much as he could. I really pray for that, I cannot bear seeing you hurting anymore and stuck in the same cycle again; I pray to BREAK the bad cycle happening on you. But before that, you should change yourself to notice that you are a worthy girl :) Don't devalue yourself just because you think that there is no guy out there reaching for you. Remember, good things (man) worth waiting. God has the best plan for you, and all you need to do is to put your FULL trust on Him. I say this because I experience it. God loves me and God loves you as well. :)

Again, I shall say, good things (man/woman) are worth waiting for.

Achievements vs Values

Throughout my life in tertiary education, there is always this question that surrounds and confuses me.

"Achievements or Values are more important?"

People who commit themselves into tertiary studies because they want a diploma/ degree certification at least, so that they can compete with the fresh graduates outside for a job in future. How many undergraduates actually think of "I study in university because I want to learn the skills that will benefit me in future"? I wonder~ seriously. As I have seen my friends choose electives based on the subjects' course outlines (assignments can be done easily); they don't really judge based on what they want to learn from those subjects. Perhaps this happen more frequent in private universities as students are paying around RM2k for one subject. Hence, grades play crucial roles in this case as students need to repay RM2k over if they fail the subject, and if you score badly- that's it. What I want to say is, most people study for grades, not that they want to learn things from it.

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Ms Listen case makes me think of this question even deeper especially when she says "The difference between you and me is I am a degree holder and you are only O level."

1. You are a degree holder because you are born earlier than us.
2. The whole street is bombarded by degree holders. Degree certification isn't something great nowadays.
3. Even our lecturers (Master/ PhD) want us to voice out our opinions but a degree holder shut us up.
4. People gain respect, they don't ask for it.
5. Ms Listen even shouted at her colleague who is same age as her. You can say you don't need to respect the youngsters but he is elder than you, woman.

Colleague : Can I speak something? (very politely)

Ms Listen : NO! I haven't finish yet! *then continue talking*

 

People are angry not because the animals facts that you have raised, but your attitude. Despite the facts that you cutting off Ms Bawani's word with your 11 times of "Listen!", grabbing the microphone over to stop her speech, shooting her in front of the public, and not answering any of her questions seriously. You can shoot her but please give some rational reasons. Yes, everyone has problems even animals also have problem; does it mean that we need no to solve these problems coz it will always be there? And bear in mind, those animal problems that you have raised are inherited issues- only God knows the solutions; problems that raised by Ms Bawani are men-related problem- where it was created by men and hence it should be solved by humans as well.

As a degree holder, you failed to answer questions raised by O-level student.  

As a degree holder, you failed to gain respect from people.

As a degree holder, you failed to practice the moral values.

As a degree holder, you failed to understand the meaning of "apologize".

As a degree holder, you failed to meet the basic human values - respect.

GOSH ! I ended up this post by criticizing the other @@ which I shouldn't really be doing this! But something that I have to say, Malaysia will become worse if the politics keep suppressing us from voice out our opinions and force us to follow those laws blindly. Everybody says CHANGE! But one will never change if he or she doesn't want to get out from the comfort zone. ;)



Start of something new

WOW Sudah 2013 weyyyyyyy, I still can't accept myself turning to 20 this year. It sounds like I am no longer a teenager, it's time to grow up. :'(

Anyways, 2012 was a great and challenging year. I've travelled to few places that I never been and experienced many things that I never try before. (the main ones)

1. Officially a degree student.
2. Tones of assignments and researches.
3. Officially a Gb officer, thou it's just AW.
4. Holiday in Pulau Perhentian.
5. Submitting 5 assignments in a week.
6. Becoming the VP of psych student council.
7. Becoming the VP of rescue team.
8. Becoming the publicity of circle K club.
9. Becoming the Psych rep in Student Representative Council.
10. Marathons (Half Mara, Nike, Kidney Run, 12 hour walk, etc...)
11. Holiday in Genting with friends only.
12. Holiday in Pulau Redang.
13. Organizing so many eventssssss.
14. Speaking up in front of all the Psych freshmen.
15. Conducting research (interviews and questionnaires)
16. Teaching first aid in school.
17. Teaching drill in one week and rush for competition.
18. Becoming head of sponsorship team in Psych Annual Ball.
19. Christmas in Singapore.
20. Countdown in Genting.

2013 is my year 2 degree ad. Cannot play as much as I did before because CGPA and honours are counted. Well, I still need to balance myself well between academics, co-curriculum, and GB. My 2013 calendar was full during the Nov of 2012. So, I can foresee it will be a TOUGH year. Gotta prepare myself well enough to go through all these.

Well, something that I will still remain are the marathons and holidays. I am now planning where to go for my April sem break HAHA XD That's the best reward for me after a tiring semester. : D

Understand

Once one of my friends told me, I am the person who will only friend with people that benefit me. I strongly denied this statement until I realised that the friendship towards certain friends tended to be "faded" once the event is over and then I would meet another group of friends which help me in another way. In another words, I knew how to make friends, be friends, but not maintain a long term quality friendship. Until I met these people who taught me - friendship will never maintain unless you are willing to contribute to it.

With the experiences that I experienced in university  it makes me appreciate my beloved friends more despite the powerpuff girls or my long-term friends in primary. These are the people who taught me what is friendship. Well, we neither talk 24/7 nor every week, but when we start it will be an endless talk. We treat each other as friends not servant- we don't expect friends to be there helping us every moment. However, we are ready to catch the others when they are falling; we support the others to stand up again! We put friends at the first place and wish the best will happen on them; there is neither secretly jealous nor backstabbing behind.  Even there is jealousy (girls), we turn them to praises and learn from one another.

All of us are busy, but we make time for each other.
All of us are busy, but we do concern for the other about the latest updates.
All of us are busy, but we support the others to go through the downs.
All of us are busy, but we don't wish friends to worry about us.
All of us are busy, but we will be there when one of us really needs us.

This video reminds me of the powerpuff girls
- 3 girls - crazy ones- talkative ones- noisy ones-

- pray that our friendship will last like theirs, I wish to get one of you to be my bridesmaid-

girl #1 : 

the baby girl among all, always cry yet strong, the one can make ppl laugh without doing anything, the one who always think and wish about lovy stuff, the round face girl.

girl #2 :

 the talented girl in singing, the fashion-est, thinnest and coolest girl, sometimes is the most violence ones as well, the one who always complains she never couple before.

girl #3 :  

used to be slight boyish and now very lady already, the most funny entertainer, always give people a sense of friendliness, good in imitate, the joker.