
When I passed by the pavilion main door, I saw many wedding couples were dressed up in both handsome and gorgeous look. They were involved in a function i guess as there were many cameras around haha.
While watching them, two figures flashed through my mind, H1 and H2. Being single for quite some time and people around keep asking about the couple matter lead me thinking of wish to couple; however, I just feel that im so feeling-less to guys around me. Okay, YES of course there are some, but I wonder if this is the outcome of me studying psychology, my brain is seem to be totally controlled by me. Whenever I tell myself stop thinking or what, I do stop! Hence, whenever there is involuntary flashes or people flash through, it confused me a lot.
And, I do strongly feel that I am not ready to couple; perhaps I have not meet the one, or I have met the one yet I deny it? I wonder @@ Haiz, people say love is blind. I admit that when I am getting more rational, love seems getting further from me. I don't really understand what love is now. So, I should be more emotional? Hmmm, I believe when a guy really show his love to me, all these above are not problems and I would love him too :) *provided there is feel lo, not loving foe gratitude